Sunday, June 22, 2008
ok, finally now my uncle is asleep, and here i'm blogging... i dun noe when i can use com again but i think i won't blog anymore... i will end everything, i'm juz so tired... why??? i only wan dear 2 come back, i also cannot contact dear & i'm very miserable... i juz wan 2 talk 2 her but i dun noe how??? i wan 2 leave everything... i will end all de prob by myself... i really hate it... i dun noe how, i really won't come back unless dear dun leave me... i dun noe can, if she can juz stay & we dun fight then everything will be alrite but i dun noe can... i though of juz 4get everything & dun talk abt our prob & juz help each other but tat time dear suddenly ask me sth in de bus & then from there slowly i start 2 think abt our prob & untill now we haf so much misunderstanding... tat time i told myself not 2 think abt our prob & juz treat everything as per normal but out of no where, she suddenly bring out tis subject & now i dun noe how??? i dun wish 2 live, i really cannot contact dear, i dun noe wad 2 do now??? i wan dear... Arrrrr... i will end everything already, i dun noe wad 2 do... i juz miss her so much... take care... cousin, dun worry juz take care of urself... let me rest in peace... i won't blog anymore... juz take care... dun worry abt me, i'm a failure & i'm sorry 4 everything, dun tel them anything, i dun wan them 2 noe, u juz dun worry too much abt me k... i juz dun noe wad 2 do & i'm going crazy... Tell me where the rainbow is Could you still give me back my wish Why is the sky so silent? All of the clouds are running to meIs there a mask for me? Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing Perhaps time is a kind of antidote And also the first poison I'm taking now I could not see your smile, how can I sleep well Your silhouette is so close to me, yet I cannot embrace it Without earth, the sun can still circle around Without reasons, I also can walk alone You want to go away, I know that is very easy You said dependence is our obstacle Even if we break up, but couldn't you not receive my love Assuming I'm the last to understand fang, i dun noe how??? thk 4 de words... perhaps i will listen 2 u... i need a break... i hope tat u will be fine after all!!! tis few days there seem 2 be alot of quarreling... u should noe, it's very tiring 2 quarrel everyday, in fact ytd also we quarrel!!! ENOUGH!!! let's take a break & i hope tis break could helps... i dun noe wad 2 say, if u dun care then dun bother, juz call me & u say wadever la??? u think it's funny!!! i was angry, but then i did not fight wif u, cuz u r de 1 who has attitude prob, not me... i juz wan 2 haf peace, i've been having nightmare since de day we quarrel till now... how many days already??? i hope when i leave now, i will be able 2 sleep in peace 4 tis few days... dun contact me??? leave me alone!!! i juz dun wan 2 talk 2 anyone now!!! PEACE!!! dun worry, u r busy, yes, i noe u r... everytime i called u, u will say u r busy, fine, busy then busy... let us cool down cuz i noe if we continue 2 talk, we will fight & i dun wan tis 2 happen, i'm really having headach, i need a break!!! i hope tis few days when i'm not around, we can haf some peace... there's alot of prob, which u won't noe!!! so juz leave it... i ask myself tis question & i wan 2 find de ans but i can't... i ask if we were 2 end "everything" will u still care 4 me??? my ans 4 NOW is i think no!!! cuz nowadays we haven end "everything" & de way u talk 2 me is very hurting!!! ya... we do get hurt but if everyday i'm getting hurt, can i live in peace, NO!!! then take ytd 4 example, de way u react, i was very angry then when i went home, i ask myself why muz u react tis way??? but i believe u... juz take care of ur toes... so i choose 2 leave now... i think it could be a good time 4 us 2 go & think through wad we really wan!!! so dun contact me... hopefully after we haf think through then we shall talk again!!! TAKE TIS TIME 2 THINK THROUGH & GIVE OURSELF SOME PEACE!!! i agree, peace seldom come... so now we shall create peace for ourself, tis way things will be better 4 de both of us... fang: ru guo wo zuo chuo le jue ding... na jue rang wo chen dan yi qie... wo mei yi zhi dou you wen ti, dan, ni mei zhi dou zai bang wo... wo hen gan xie ni... ke shi zhe yi chi, wo pai wo hui zuo chuo yi ge jue ding, wo pu yao hou hui, ni zhi dao wo zai jiang zhen mei... dui pu qi!!! sorry!!! take care!!! fang, thk 4 de words... thk 4 de advise... i guess i really need a break, i'm really miserable, i juz wan 2 leave everything 4 a while... so dun worry, i will make sure i find back myself... u dun worry, take care alrite!!! see ya soon!!! huda, dun feel guilty... no matter wad happens, i won't blame u... cheer up & dun be sad... i told u tat it is unfair... so juz leave it!!! sorry huda, i will not call u but after when i'm ready 2 talk then i will call u... i think 4 now, u should not think too much... take care & be happy... dun worry too much & think too much... huda, thk 4 everything... i miss u & thk 4 helping me all tis while, i dun noe wad 2 say but i juz miss u so much... take care k... sha, i dun noe wad 2 say, i miss de time i spend wif u, i still can rmb tat time when we went airport tgt, u juz make my day... thk sha... thk 4 ur help when i neede u... i noe i'm not a good frenz but still thk 4 being there wif me always... u noe de reason tat make me feel so lost is i juz can't find myself back, i'm having so much confusion & i dun noe wad 2 do... thk 4 talking 2 me... hais, mummy, no matter wad i will still love u... i miss u so much, muz take care of urself... i'm so tired... nabila, ya, i agree wif u... but then i dun noe wad 2 do... thk 4 de msg... i miss all de times when we share our prob... u noe u reminds me of sth... u told me... no no, cannot... somemore we are so close later "F" WILL THINK OTHER WAY ROUND... ya, so juz be ourself... nabila, sorry... thk 4 accompanying me all de times & thk 4 being there wif me everytime... nabila, dun think too much already... i miss u, hope i can hear ur voice & see u again... take care k...
jean, i miss u... i dun noe wad happen... maybe we dun haf prob but then i dun noe... i really hope everything will be back 2 normal... i juz miss those times when we haf so much fun... hope we can be like in de past again, but now i dun think can... jean, i'm sorry if i make u angry or wad but i did not fail 2 think of u... i really miss u alot & i ask peisi alot of things abt u... i hope we can still be close again... i think now i won't be able 2 do tat... i really wan 2 leave everything... i'm sorry jean... pls take care of urself... sorry & thk 4 being there for me all those while... take care...
liting, hey, miss u like hell... hmm, tat time i nv call u back... sorry, was busy... hope jean, u & me can be close again... hais... liting... so much has happen... i dun noe wad 2 do... i miss u so much... i really dun noe wad 2 do, everybody haf their own life now... we can't meet up so often... u dun work so much k... take care...
i dun wan 2 go on anymore but i juz wan 2 tel huda, sha, nabila, fiona, fang, peisi, bear, liting, jean & u tat i juz miss u guys alot... thk 4 being there 4 me always... i'm always having prob??? hais... i juz hate everything... i think tis will be my last post already... pls take care of urself k... i'm sorry 2 give u guys so much prob... anyway i won't 4get all de times we spend tgt... take care everyone!!! huiqin, take care of urself, dun worry abt de person who fake as u, juz 4get abt it... sorry k...
promise me tat u won't leave me!!!
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