Wednesday, June 25, 2008
my precious!!! i juz read ur blog!!! i was wondering who r u refering too??? you say u will love tat person & u say it is worth giving u tat chance but if u were given tis chance, will u treasure it??? i dun noe ur ans??? only u noe!!! i juz hope everything goes well... well, i spend de whole nite thinking ytd, after u hang up de phone... i went 2 my mum room, wanted 2 tel my mum everything abt me... but when i think of it, if i say everything out, all de prob will turn out 2 be in a mess, my mum will make a big fuss out of it & i will go crazy & i might even get into trouble... my mum could even call de police... so i decided not 2 tel... ytd my aunt came!!! i was sleeping, had fever & when my aunt came into my room & she wake me up, wanted 2 talk 2 me but i juz couldn't wake up, i heard her voice but i juz couldn't open my eyes... was really sick ytd... but still, i manage 2 wake up later & i told my aunt i was guilty 4 not waking up juz now... then my aunt say nvm, ur mum told me u r sick so go & rest, dun think too much... ya, so i went 2 sleep... was really very tired, juz wish i could sleep 4ever & nv see de sun rise again but it's not going 2 happen... then as i say, i spend de whole nite thinking??? thinking of??? i really told myself i say i will not give myself prob & i wan us 2 be close again... but i juz felt so indifferent... u r precious 2 me... i dun wan 2 lose u & i hope i can nv lose u!!! i called u ytd but u wanted 2 rest & anyway i need 2 rest so i didn't talk much 2 u!!! jus hope u can recover soon!!! i miss u much, yes!!! but still... everyday i juz cry secretly & i juz cried after reading ur blog!!! i juz dun noe who r u refering too!!! but still, u get ur chance now, will u prove it 2 tat person tat by giving u tat chance is a rite decision??? yes, i love u, u love her!!! but still we can't go beyond tat, u noe tis & i noe it too!!! ya, i agree tat Winning someone's heart is not easy!!! it's really not easy... but juz hope everyone could juz treasure their love ones... i hope tis decision tat we haf made can be worth while... i read my diary everyday & i update it everyday cuz now, everyday mean so much 2 me... wadever i do, i will still think of u but thinking of u make me feel better... if i haf nv think of u, wadever i do now, i may choose 2 die... but now, i won't becuz of u & whoa... i will live & i will promise even if we can't be tgt, if u stay wif me, i will live... ya, now i can feel it... ya, u did stay, not in relationship wise but in frenzship wise... ur presence means so much 2 me... everynite is a tourture cuz i juz couldn't sleep.. nowadays i lie on de sofa 2 juz wait 4 my brain 2 go 2 bed... i'm weary... everyday i'm doing de same thing & ytd when i look out at de window, i saw de sky... everything was blank & de sky was so dark... every blk was black & everyone was sleeping, all de neighbours haf already sleep, lights off but i'm still not in bed yet... u say This is the opportunity to let you feel my love for you just you my one and only love??? i dun noe who u refering too but i hope tat u will treasure tis chance given 2 u... i'm very weary already... u really didn't call me, waited 4 ur call everyday but still i didn't receive a single call from u but instead from him??? but nvm, i will still wait 4 ur call everyday hopefully 1 day i could receive a call from u... :( now i got no hp... i dun noe la... i will only love u & i juz hope everything will remains as de same... i won't get involve in love again... i will love u & in my heart there's only u... i won't let anyone replace u in my heart & it will remain like tis... u are really precious 2 me, even if we can't be tgt u will still be my precious 1!!! only u and whoa are precious 2 me... u & her juz makes my life so wonderful... i dun wan 2 lose de 2 of u & i juz wan 2 hold u & her 4ever... i juz miss those days when we play soccer tgt... lols, playing soccer could make me 4get everything & it's fun... juz thought of sth, i rmb got 1 time we play match tgt & it was raining & de court is wet then i rmb tat i play wif whoa then whoa keep fall down, ouch!!! whoa, it muz be pain rite!!! but still u r strong!!! i dun noe why, everyday i juz miss u so much wondering if u got miss me not??? hais, haf i found my ans??? i'm not sure too but i hope de ans will come out by it's own!!! oh ya, i 4got sth, u lie 2 me!!! u say u could let me hear de song tat u sang but u did not!!! u lier... hais... DOGGIE!!! thk 4 everything... wow, it's 3:55am now, so late... ok, i'm going 2 rest... i'm so sick... hope tml my fever will be gone & hope u can recover soon... take care...u!!! hais... u told me tat she ask u 2 tel me those 3 words... 4get it... we can't get tgt!!! i juz dun wan 2 get hurt again!!! i had enough of love... i really had enough... dun love me cuz i dun deserve 2 be loved... go 4 other girls... dun waste ur time on me... i dun wan 2 get involve wif love now!!! i juz lose a person & i dun wan 2 lose u in future so i think it's best if we can juz be frenz!!! i hope tat u can find a better girl which is 100% much more better than me... i'm not a good girl & u dun deserve 2 get me... it's a waste of time... dun call me so many times... 10 call in 1 day can really cause me troubles... somemore it's a guy... pls??? i hope we could be frenz... everything could be better... wad 4 fall in love when u r not even serious??? juz 4get it can... hey, let me tel u, i'm not as perfect as u think, i juz dun wan 2 get hurt again... i had enough of love... i'm scare of love already, i haf already lose hope in love so no point waiting 4 me... 4GET ME, SERIOUSLY, I'M NOT WORTH UR LOVE... I THK U 4 LOVING ME BUT I JUZ CAN'T FIND DE CHEMISTRY IN US!!! SORRY I DUN WAN 2 HURT UR FEELING & I JUZ DUN WAN U 2 WASTE UR TIME ON ME!!! I DUN WAN 2 PLAY WIF UR FEELINGS, U UNDERSTAND!!! I NOE IF TIS GOES ON FURTHER, MY PARENTS WILL COME 2 REALISED IT & I THINK SINCE WE HAF NOT EVEN STARTED, WHY NOT WE JUZ STAY AS GOOD FRENZ & DUN EVER THINK OF STARTING A RELATIONSHIP SO TAT U & ME WON'T GET INTO TROUBLE... I NOE IF MY MUM FIND OUT ABT US, SHE TOLD ME SHE WILL CALL POLICE 2 CATCH US WHICH I DUN WAN TIS 2 HAPPPEN SO I HOPE WE CAN REALLY BE GOOD FRENZ!!!
promise me tat u won't leave me!!!
3:56 AM
