Monday, June 23, 2008
ok, finally now i can borrow my aunt laptop so i haf 2 faster blog before she wake up... after 2day, i dun noe if my com will recover anot, if my dad frenz can fixed de com then good if cannot then i dun noe when i can blog again... then i still haven get back my phone, now i got 1 phone but i dun noe wad if suddenly my mum rmb tat i haf de phone & she wan 2 take it from me then i sure can't contact dear... then house phone also i dun noe now if i can use anot??? hais... i haf so many different feelings... it's so complicated... hopefully ppl call me i can use de house phone!!! hais... Dear, it's so early now... hmm, juz can't sleep well last night so juz wake up early... u noe ytd de whole nite i was so sad, i juz miss u so much... u wouldn't noe cuz u r very happy... u noe sometimes a call from u will make so much different 2 my day... but i dun noe la... wad happens, has already happen... i juz hope de future will be better 4 everyone!!! i've got so much things 2 say... it's alot but then i'm very tired... everything has change... i hope we can be like in de past, like how we were close before??? talk on de phone everynite, share our prob tgt!!! i hope after tis decision tat haf been made, we will haf better days ahead... i noe u hide sth from me... u noe & i won't tel... god noes too... but nvm, i dun wan 2 noe, u noe it urself... so much haf happen, "so much"!!! hopefully now things can work & get better... if i haf de chance i will surely turn back de clock... someone told me tat, i should be happy cuz i'm de 1st person tat u really love & de 1st person tat u really get tgt de longest... i dun noe if it's true... but then i'm happy tat for tis 7months 23 days i could be wif u, spending all my times with u, having de love from u, hanging out wif u!!! i think tis is true love, although we can't last but still it is counted as true love cuz we did love each other rite??? i haf learn alot of things from u & i hope after tis we can continue 2 learn more things from each other... let me tel u tat, u r de 1st person which make me feel tat there's meaning in my life & u r de 1st person which i haf get tgt 4 de longest time & de 1st person 2 give me so much memories and de 1st person who cares 4 me so much... u r de most important person in my life once & now wad is done is done, we can't undo it... so juz continue 2 live life and make sure we dun regret... u taught me alot of things... although we do hurt each other some time but hopefully we won't hurt each other in future again!!! hey, i juz got so much things 2 tel u, but i need a break, i tel u my eye is full wif water, all de tears are flowing down and if i dun clean, de floor will be filled wif my TEARS!!! everyone haf good & bad times but we juz haf 2 go through it all... thanks 4 everything... i juz hope tat everything will goes on smoothly & i hope all my prob can be wash away... u noe, u inspired me alot & i rmb u told me tat i inspired u too... so if we really inspired each other then we shall continue 2 do so, so tat wadever prob or things we face in future, at least we noe tat we are there 2 inspired each other... hey, u DOGGIE!!! i juz dun noe wad 2 do, i feel so hurt, yes!!! why, cuz it's so painful 2 let go but i guess u haf 2 give me time!!! PROMISE ME!!! cuz ytd u say u will give me time so i hope time will prove everything... nvm, i will stay strong... i'm a strong person & i will not be childish... i haf grown up... i muz move on no matter wad... if ever i wan 2 die, pls stop me!!! then i rmb u told me tat i'm a good girl and u say u noe wad i will do!!! oh my god... i'm sorry 4 all de troubles all tis while, i'm tired & i juz hope tat i can 4get all my prob... forgive me my weakness... i felt miserable cuz i really couldn't sleep at nite then i haf 2 end up sleeping late & i felt miserable cuz of so many prob & i feel sad... If u live to be a hundred, I wan to live to be ninety-nine so I nv have to live without u... i feel tat there's a cut in my heart u noe why, cuz everything has changed... but nvm, i hope de cut can cure faster... i hope i can play soccer so tat i can forget everything... DOGGIE!!! dun say i bitch la, u dog... hais... i dun noe if i should laugh or cry but thinking back of wad u say on de phone ytd, make me wan 2 laugh... i can feel u r happy & ur tone sounds so happy as if there's rainbow on de sky rite now, oh my god, i think ur phone is dirty, all filled wif ur saliva, u nv wash ur phone after u kiss de phone rite??? lols, jk jk... but after u hang up, i started 2 cry & i think... i really dun wan us 2 be affected... cuz de past few days becuz of our prob, we keep quarrel & i dun wan 2 quarrel everyday... i really dun noe why i'm juz so upset but still if u r happy, i'm happy 4 u... i really cannot go on anymore, i got alot more things 2 tel u but i really need a break... i can't control my tears from dripping, it's so irrtating... One day if u ask me which is more important, u or my life??? And I will say my life, and u will walk away not knowing tat u are my life... but i hope everything will be alrite 4 everyone!!! There is no future, there is no past. I live tis moment as my last... There's only us, there's only tis, forget regret, or life is yours to miss, no other road, no other way, no day but today... so i wan u 2 noe tat i will love u always & u will always be there in my heart... maybe we can't be tgt but loving a frenz could be better... i rmb tat, u say "de bond in us will stay like tis forever" and hope it will stay like tis forever... ok, i'm having difficulty in breathing, i need 2 rest now... PLS DUN LIE DOWN WHEN U CAN'T BREATH AND DRINK LOTS OF PLAIN WATER AND PLUS GET ENOUGH REST!!! DUN DRINK COLD WATER CAN... take care & wait, before u go, scoll down, i got sth 4 u!!! <3"huda"
huda, i choose tis song on my blog cuz tis songs has a meaning of de 2 of us & i think u noe de reason rite!!! so ya, tis song make me rmb de times we had tgt & it juz haf so much meaning... i juz miss huda... i dun noe why, i juz hope she can get her... but no matter wad, hope huda can cheer up... i feel i juz haf a line drawn 2 huda... without u, i will miss u much, i dun noe why... but i hope we will be happy again... i rmb u told me tat, we may fail in love but we may not fail in other things and i agreed wif u... i think by playing soccer, really it can helps me 2 forget everything, u noe when i play soccer, i can really forget everything, so huda, play soccer often so tat u won't think of so much prob... dun give up no matter wad, wadever u do, i will support u... Have fun, Be good, Smile, Laugh, Hug, But mostly, love... take care & cheer up... i miss u lots!!! <3
"jean"
then 4 jean, i really dun noe how??? i juz hope tat we can go back 2 de past... jean, i juz wan u 2 noe tat i miss u very much & i hope tat everything tat u do, u will be happy... i miss u & i hope we can still talk... i dun wish 2 end our frenzship cuz i still care... i really hope tis frenzship tat we haf will nv stop... i miss those times when we are so close... i really hope we can still hang out tgt i really dun wan our 4 years of frenzship 2 end juz like tat... juz take care & i hope tat everything will goes on smoothly 4 u... <3
"sha"
dun worry, u tag me, u say u will think, dun think too much... yeah, i agreed tat we are mature & we will move on no matter wad... in life, we will always haf good & bad times... so no matter wad prob we face in future, be it good or bad, we juz haf 2 move on & learn our mistake... every prob we face, we juz haf 2 treat it as a lesson learnt!!! god is always testing us & we muz thank god, cuz if god didn't test us, we won't learn our lesson & we will continue 2 make de same mistakes... so wad happen has past, now tat we haf learn our lesson, we muz noe wad is our mistake & we muz prevent from making de same mistakes again... it hurts me so much but still i haf 2 be strong, all of us are strong & we can overcome any things if we unite as one again!!! take care mummy... i miss u!!! <3>
i haf a song 4 u too... all de words are so powerful, i think every sentence i wrote has a great meaning... i hope tat after this... everything will be fine!!!
"it goes on, no matter wad"
Everyone muz go through a storm to get to a rainbow...
Sometimes it's de things tat u can't do, tat bring out de brilliance of wad u can!!!
It really hurts when u expected so much more from de person u once loved so much...
When I saw how much pain love could bring I felt sorry for those in love, when I saw how much joy love could bring I envied those in love...
Life would go on smoothly if we only knew wad to do with it...
If love is not worth waiting for, it's not worth having...
Where life exists, love exists...
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on...
Life is a mystery to be lived, not a problem to be solved...
Take a look at wad u have. Think of all u did to get it...
Remember it only takes one second to lose everything tat you haf...
De love we have is God's gift to us, what we do with it is our gift to God...
Make it perfect, u never noe when de last time will be...
Wad lies behind us and wad lies before us are tiny matters compared to wad lies within us...
Life is not measured by de number of breaths we take, but by de moments tat take our breath away...
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on...
"""Life is a journey of experience's, and in tis journey we meet many people each day. Some we forget de next moment, BUT some we cherish throughout our lives. It is these people who give a 'true meaning' to our lives, Not where I breath, but where I love, I live, Love is wad we were born with. Fear is wad we learned here!!!"""
U were my strength when I was weak, u were my voice when I couldn't speak, u were my eyes when I couldn't see; u saw de best there was in me...
Dance like no one's watching, sing like no one's listening, love like you'll never get hurt, and live like it's heaven on Earth!!!
If u wan de rainbow, u must first go through de rain...
Sometimes wad u want isn't always wad u get, but in the end wad u get is so much better than wad u wanted...
U can close ur eyes to things u don't wan to see, but u can't close ur heart to de things u dun't wan to feel...
There is only one key and one lock, and tat is u and me...
If I could be anything, I would be ur tear so I could be born in ur eyes, live down ur cheek, and die on ur lips...
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on...
Take away love and de earth is a tomb...
Breaking up is jus like having de worst nightmare after having de best dream...
U will never noe love unless u surrender to it...
Never let love get de best of u, but u should always try to get de best of love...
Isn't it ironic how we ignore de ones tat adore us, and yet we adore tat ones tat ignore us???
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal, somtimes u can't always see the pain someone feels...
Love happens whether u want it to or not. Don't try to control it...
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on...
promise me tat u won't leave me!!!
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